Do you ever look in the mirror and wonder who you really are? There are a couple of life stages in which that is developmentally normal. I tend to think that we find out more about ourselves during those somewhat turbulent times. The core of who we are seems to push to the front in crises. Our fears become more palatable and our strengths more evident. How we see ourselves before God can be a little more scary and elusive, though.
Fundamentally, I struggle with believing that God is good. That thought originates from my efforts to hide my sinfulness from a perfect and holy God, and my fear that He can’t love me. Adam and Eve hid from God out of shame and I do the same. God clothed Adam and Eve by killing an animal. He clothes me by the atoning sacrifice of Christ.
Adam and Eve walked with God; naked and unashamed (Genesis 2:25). God gave them their identity by creating them in His image (Genesis 1:27). He affirmed His thought of them by clothing them. In Romans 5:1-2, Paul claims that we have peace with God through faith in Christ.
I don’t see God as good when I view unpleasant circumstances or focus on messages about me from others. When I pause to look at Him and realize my place of peace established by Christ, I begin to hear what He says about me. Scripture speaks of the unique and intimate relationship that believers have with Christ. I am the apple of His eye (Deuteronomy 32:10, Psalm 17:8)!
We can trust Him to inform us about ourselves, because He is good. Let us quiet ourselves before Him this week; listening to Him by reading His Word, hearing the Word taught, communing with believers, and spending time in prayer. The Song of Solomon is a beautiful book that describes His intimate love of His people. He invites us to a banqueting table and displays a banner of love over us (Song of Solomon 2:4). Rejoice in His goodness and His thoughts of you. May you not be enamored by who you are, but awed by such a merciful and loving God.